Lost

I feel i have lost my direction. I don't know what i am doing now. Everything that i planned for didn't work out. I don't know what i want; or rather, i know what i want, but that's too much to pursue, so i am stuck in-between, facing a risk of reaching nowhere in the end.

I know i have to give up on either one. But i can't decide. i can't i can't i can't. the longer i can't decide, the longer i am going to feel empty.

Why can't i just have the best of two worlds? Am i that incompetent? :(

* 12:00 AM

Sarah
+Currently at Ithaca, NY
+Typical Piscean
+A self-oriented perfectionist
+Loves to dream and over-plan
+Can't get enough of travelling
+Has many sweet teeth
+Can't stop gaining weight
+Still a fan of Faye Wong



>>Friends'
S06A!
Adeline
Anuja
Chee Wei
Christina
Clara
Danxu
Diane
Ellen
Flo
Gary
Hui-lin
Jacinth
Jaclyn
Jiaying
Joel
Joshua
Michelle
Pei Qin
Xin Wei
Zhang Er
Zhi'en
Zirong


>>Digital filmrolls
Utah backpacking
Las Vegas
San Francisco&Palo Alto
NYC
Fall 05 @ Cornell
Massachusetts&Vermont
UN/NYC
Niagara falls&Toronto
Cornell orientation
Pre-departure
Rjc 2005
S06A 05
Grad Nite
S06A 03-04
IBN attachment


>>Consumerism pleasures
Zappos
Ebags
Victoria Secrets
GoJane
Urban Outfitters
Eve's Addiction
Aeropostale